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Whew... it's been a while since I posted. I worked at the subbing job for 2 weeks. I did apply but the principal let all the applicants know that there were displaced employees that have first stab at the job, and if none of them wanted the position, then the process of hiring would start. But someone did take it, so I'm back at home. Not too broken up about it either.

Hubs and I are having a wonderful week together. He had a class last week that was far away so he was gone for 4 days and we missed him terribly. So now he's home and he doesnt go back to work until Thursday. So we've been spending time together just hanging out, catching up on our favorite shows from while he was gone and a little shopping (his favorite...not). He likes to play Warcraft so one of my favorite things to do in the evening is sit in his office with him. I'll use the laptop and get online (usually on Club Pogo, LOL) and we can catch up about the day or the kids and still take that time for ourselves relaxing with something fun.

So that's about it from here. I hope everyone was able to get out and vote!!

A little work update

Today the school called about that subbing job. It took a while to get going because the girl who's leaving doesnt start at the new job until this Wednesday. They want me to start tomorrow to shadow her for a day so I know what I'm doing.
The job was posted for that position last week and I did apply. I weighed all the pros and cons and feel, at this time, it would be best for us financially and I am willing to commit to those hours through the end of the school year, then we'll reevaluate in June. The posting closes on Wednesday and I assume they will start on the interviews after that.
My dreaded fear.... the interview. I'm very self critical. I know everyone says this but I am one of those people that thinks of what I wanted to say WAY after I should've said it. And no matter how well I may do, I will rip apart the entire thing in my head for a couple of days after it. I'll think of all the ways I should have answered this question or that. It's annoying. I truly have anxiety whenever I think about it. I printed out sample interview questions for this line of work and have been writing things down so it's more commited to memory what I'd like to say. I feel it will help me keep the frame of mind I need.
The funny thing is, I know the people interviewing me, they were my bosses last year and very nice. This really shouldnt intimidate me at all, I think it's just that natural fear of public speaking and since I do know them, if I totally bomb and look like a fool, they are people I see on a weekly basis when I'm at the school for other things.. its not like I'm never going to see them again.
I'm rambing (as usual) but need to get these things out of my head. I just want the process to be over with.... yesterday!

Tidbits

It's interesting how things come and go. I mentioned that I got a new sub job that could work into more. Well I worked for 4 days... 4 long, exhausting, emotional days. I dont know if it was me not being used to working, the mental/physical stress of the job or a combination of both. On that 4th day, I was going to mention to my boss how taxing it was and that if the position became a permanent one, I probably wouldnt be applying for it and before I could, they came to me and said they couldnt get the district to pay for my subbing and they had to find someone internal who is already being paid to be there to do it. So I'm back at home for now, and I didnt have to burn any bridges in the process.

They did call with another offer for a different subbing position working in the Resource room with small groups. It's probably a 7-10 day job until they hire someone permanent. I could apply. I'm weighing my options on it. It's the room I worked in before so I know everyone there. But it's more hours than I originally wanted. More hours means more money, yes.. I get that, and that would be great. But I'm trying to consider other things in my life as well. I really enjoyed working for 3-4 hrs before, getting home before anyone else and having time to do the things I need/want to do around the house. I dont like getting up and rushing around to get everyone out the door, including me, working the school day and coming home with everyone in tow and rushing to get homework and dinner done before collapsing at night and starting all over again. And still feeling like nothing got done at home. I've always been a homemaker. My heart is here, my thoughts are here. I know that the day to day grind is sometimes the only option people have. I've always been fortunate enough to be here most of the time without having to work or only having to work part time. SO basically the options I'm weighing are how I feel about getting into more hours and how I'll be as a mom/wife. I dont want to be naggy, griping and grumpy just to make a few more dollars at the end of the month.

New Job

I work in the education field as a paraeducator. I stopped working last spring when the student I worked one on one with moved to another state. I've been looking at job boards for the two nearest districts the past few weeks. I've been fortunate not be so desperate that I can be a little picky about what I'm looking for and what schools I'd want to choose from. My first choice is the school I worked at last year because it's also where my boys attend. Close to home and no schedule conflicts since its the same hours as them.

Well that school called me yesterday and offered me a job! It was a nice surprise when the secretary called. She says... "Hi Angie, we were wondering if you wanted a job?" I said.."Well, yes, actually, what are we talking about?" It's only a temporary position for now. They need a one on one assistant for a kindergartner. He will be assessed fully Oct. 24th. After the assessment it will determine if he needs to go to an early primary class at another school, in which case my job would be over and I'll start looking again. Or he could be staying and just need an assistant to be with him all day where I would become full time again. I'm not sure yet which I would like to have happen.. I'll get back to you on that after I've worked with him for a week or so. LOL.

This came at a very good time. We were just saying it may be time for me to step up my job search and branch out to other areas. This seems to be how my job opportunities have always come to me... just when I need them to, with little effort on my part. I'm not bragging, I'm just very thankful!!

The land of coffee and lattes

So, I got a bunch of Bed Bath and Beyond gift cards for my birthday back in May. My mom gave them to me for a new coffee pot since mine was so old, descaling was not an option anymore. After MUCH research, I finally settled on the Bunn with thermal carafe. I really like it. After my coupon and gift cards I still had money left over (yay me). So, yesterday I went and picked up a Krups espresso maker. Now I can make my own lattes too! (We've been trying to cut back on all things unneccessary, like Starbucks $4 lattes...). A friend of mine has this same machine and she is, admittedly, a little neurotic. She did all the figuring and found out at that making a latte at home costs only 75 cents!! That's using good coffee, milk and vanilla flavoring (or any flavoring, really). What a bargain compared to $4! Since the machine was practically free (I paid just over $9 after gc/coupon), it's a friggin' steal! I also like how cute and petite it is. It doesnt take up much counter space at all. It's sitting right next to the coffee pot and is very easy to use. (not making commercials today... just saying...)

Fall and Free Fair Fun!

Life has been going pretty well around here lately. The weather is still really nice, but I hear fall is around the corner. With the kids back in school, it's been pretty quiet all day long. Makes for a boring, but cleaner, house. Hubs and I are doing so well. Nothing more has come of his work situation. It was 'over' when I first posted the story on here, but I felt the need to get it out of my head at the time.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow. My mom invited me to the fair. She had 2 free tickets and didnt want to go alone. We used to go all the time together since Hubs doesnt like going, he doesnt care for crowds too much. It's been a few years since I've gone. I'm not big on rides (except Disneyland, because face it, those arent rides, they are experiences!) but the food, the animals , the exhibits and even the 'infomercial style' vendors are so much fun! My favorite part, that I'm the most looking forward to, are the scones! It's tradition to get one first thing and get a bag to take home at the end of the day. My mouth is already watering! =D

not just words

i am
calmed by his touch
comforted by his smile
entertained by his humor
safe in his presence
he is
lovingly honest
adoringly caring
faithfully passionate
forever on my mind
we are
ambitious dreamers
wholly devoted
truly committed
together forever

You can let go....

I was bored this morning and flipping channels. I came across this video on CMT:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=532jxGDRjGY


I lost my dad when I was 16. He died from an aggressive form of cancer. He was never able to walk me down the aisle, like in the song, but he did help me ride a bike and my heart did break many times seeing him in the hospital. This was over 20 years ago. I didnt go up to the hospital the last night, I dont remember why. My mom told me it was probably good that I didnt, since he had a far worse day than the day before, when I last saw him. I remember always praying he would get better; just a little bit longer, hold on, you can get through this. On that last night, I went to bed and finally prayed that if he needed to let go, please help him realize it was ok now. We got the phone call in the wee hours, that night. I knew what it was, as soon as I heard the ring.


Now, I know I have no divine intervention and I dont pretend to be religiously spiritual. I have a relationship with God, I call myself a Christian. But I know, that one small prayer was more for me than anything else and it is something that I've taken with me all these years as a comfort and healing tool in getting over the loss of my father.


So to the writers of this song: Thank you. I've had a good cry and I've relived the old memories of the good days, for that, I'm grateful.

beginning to ramble

Well, here is my first post as a blogger. That's a corny opening. Whatever.

I realized the other day (and many times on many other days) that I have a lot going on in my head. And sometimes, I need an outlet for these things. So, rather than bother my husband with my ramblings (to which he really doesnt mind, but I know he's got a lot on his own mind, he doesn't need my stuff in there too), I figured I'd vent it all here, for my sanity and his.


First order of business: If you like what you read or not, feel free to let me know, but please don't bash me. I have enough crap to deal with on a daily basis than to sit around and weed through hate mail. I can take criticism but I wont tolerate trash.

With that being said, thanks for checking this out. :D